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I Feel Young, But I Realized I’m Not

Today, after work, me and my office mates had a small talk while walking to our respective homes. We somehow got to the “age” topic. We ask everyone’s ages and eventually talked about the age of our boss’ boss. I never did expect that we’re just on the same age. He looks really mature and I feel like I’m just 21 or something like that. It really opened my mind, thinking that I’m at this age now and I’m still thinking about enjoying like a teen and sort of things, instead of thinking something more serious, like putting up some business, applying for a better job with a better pay that I can settle with, you know, thinking “matured”.

What I realized was, I’m not young anymore. I should think more mature now. And it made me think that it’s because I never have achieved any goals or anything that would make me feel more mature in life. I’m the youngest of the family, and I think you know what treatment the youngest has. Do not do this, do not do that. You’re not allowed with this, not allowed with that. I mean, those kinds of treatment made me feel like I’m behind of things. Never had explored things that a teenager should experience. Not to mention I graduated in college kinda late. No, I’m not thinking about rebelling. Why should I do that? I’m mature now right? Hehe. And besides, high school fun is kinda way too late for me. ;-)

Well, I’m not mad at my parents. Actually I’m happy I have parents and brothers and sister like them. They really took very good care with me, and I’m thankful to God for that. Now that I have graduated in college and I do have work now, I should explore things now (maturely) and with that, hopefully will make me more mature mentally and spiritually. Not physically though, I don’t wanna look old. Hehe. How do you suggest on how to make me more mature? Mature and positive things okay? Heh, mature… :D

It's really nice having a coffee while reading, I'll appreciate it if you treat me one.

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